what’s your scariest thought? is it being eaten alive by monsters? being chased across skull island by a gigantic ape? losing your job? your love? your life? or is it staying the same while the whole world revolves and changes right before your eyes?

i guess the one thing i’m most afraid of is… being left behind. yes the part where all those familiar and comfortable people get up, pack their bags and head off to worlds unknown while i stay there, unmoved, realizing i’m just too tired or lazy or stubborn to take my leave too. maybe i’m just too keen on growing roots that’s why i force myself to spin in place, wait for things to get better while i while away the time, do nothing and watch the rest of them get on with the their lives.

i wasn’t like this at all. i used to have limitless zest for new adventure. now i’m just idling, lost in space. my great light has faded away, and once again i am without purpose nor direction.

what a way to start the year.