today is the end of many things – the naboplomo challenge for one, that means i won’t be obligated to post on this blog anymore, i will go back to the shadows and visit like a ghost once in a while – when i’m homeless and i can’t grow roots. it’s also our company’s last day of operation, they closed shop and sold their stocks so we’re now under a new entity. a good friend at work also had her last day today, she’s leaving for home tomorrow. watching people leave makes me sad, i wish i could go home too. it’s always easier to leave than to be left behind..

tomorrow weather forecast is 12 centimeters of snow, they’re planning to go to grouse mountain for snowboarding, i’m still thinking if i should come.. don’t want another cold weekend, i miss the beach.

when a door closes, it only means that something better is coming along soon, the purpose of it all may not be clear right now, but soon enough, when the dust settles, we’ll realize that all will turn out for the best. good things happen to good people, somehow.

• gadget lust: saw something i want on my christmas stocking, hehe now if i could only get santa’s direct line.
• tons of work today, what else is new? don’t know how to make the gears turn, in an effort to forget one thing, i ended up forgetting everything else.
• saw the dc – ny pics, argghhh! finally realized how fat i’ve become, like 10 pounds heavier than the week before at lv. how can that be? must be the chilly weather making my cheek puff, haha! nah, i need a diet and exercise plan, i’ll start tomorrow =p.
• tonight i’m helping my younger brother with his homework – psychology and brain lateralization. i miss university, everything was easier back then, should have failed a couple of classes so i’d still be in school today harhar.
• my mom is also on the chat window, recounting the latest military standoff in manila, another political turmoil brewing, and here i am, miles away, waiting for the world to change.
• company’s last day of operation, just signed my quitclaim, now i’m broke coz they haven’t released the final check yet. should have been a writer instead, if i was going to starve anyway, at least i’m doing what i’m passionate about =p.

the problem with working from home is there’s no closing time, noone to remind you to go home – coz you’re already home, noone to pass by your desk at lunch time to invite you to the cafeteria, and noone to drag you to the starbucks across the street for coffee break. so you go on and on until you realize everybody else is offline and you’re the only one left finding your way through the mess of buggy third party deliveries. the good part about this though is that you get to stay warm all day, no trudging along slippery sidewalks, no covering yourself up from the freezing rain and snowfall.

every day, we flip a coin and choose a road, each choice we make carries both good and bad things. it’s always a struggle to find the happy amidst the greyness of a holocaust aftermath, but hope floats despite the darkness, dusk reminds us of a sunset that ends all worries, and a dawn that brings with it a clean slate to help us write a new story..

we all do what we can, and it has to be good enough, and if it isn’t good enough, then it has to do..

three weeks ago i ordered 2 spare laptop batteries at globalbatteries, yet up to know, it’s still lost in transit. sales support emailed me and said they sent it through usps and it might take 8 weeks, depending on how slow regular snail mail is. too bad, i was expecting to get it sooner so i could use it on my c1x, guess i’ll have to wait a bit more, didn’t know it took this long to buy things online.

yesterday i got a notice from canada post – a parcel for pickup at their collingwood branch, what a hassle, why did they invent mail delivery if i have to get it personally from their office? i also have to pay $25 before i can claim it. =( another ups package also arrived and needs brokerage fee before they can release it – the cost of which is half the price of the package, arrgghhh!

one thing made my day though, got a gift which is probably from the vpal global kriss kringle, can’t wait to open it ^_^ plus i received my wpe from cic. hmmm, one more year,

don’t you sometimes wish you could disappear even if for just a day? throw away that mobile phone, not check emails, stay at home or go somewhere where noone knows you and noone’s looking for you.. wish i could do that everyday. don’t know if it’s the gray or the cold or the snow that’s been bringing me down, maybe it’s all of them combined.

today i did just that – got swallowed into oblivion, stopped worrying, and just went away without warning, tomorrow i’ll be back into the fast and blinding world once more, one deep breath at a time, hello neo. time to bring out my winter jacket and snow boots..

on other news, i found a good deal on an itrip at overstock and ordered one. too bad it doesnt ship to bc.